Narcissist.

I’m sorry that I keep using you

To fill a void inside my heart

And I’m sorry that I still use you

To excuse the broken parts.

Who you are and your intentions

Are not as crucial as I make them seem.

I know I’m the one prolonging your presence

And that’s the only truth that’s sustains

I’m sorry my love’s become shallow

And for not letting go when I should

I’ve let impulsivity drive me

and excuse me for doing no good

I know I can look like the victim here,

The broad with the broken heart,

But I’ve used you to excuse self destruction

And I wouldn’t if I had more going on..

Also, I’m sorry if I keep using you

Please know my love and remorse are still true

But I know that I hold on so tightly

Because I really just want an excuse.

-M_LM (©2022 Melody LeeMarie)