I once thought love wasn’t real if it was unreciprocated

but this pain that I’m stuck with is like grieving…

…The injuries of loving

May have bruised my spirit too…

…In order to prove the worth of living For Her

I need to prove it to myself first…

…I hate that even my writing these

Is an attempt at self sabotaging…

…I love me first, now that I found myself.

I had to or I’d be dead now…

…I’ve used you too, to excuse self destruction,

and that’s the truth that’s sustained us…

…You took my choice with the game that you made.

I wasn’t a player, so it made me insane…

…If living for me is all or nothing,

Then I will do all I can to save me.

…Because I don’t know how they think

I trust what I am given, So I can get what I seek.

…There are no right or wrong decisions

Only an ongoing cycle of responding.

You don’t need to look…

…Pay attention…

…Did they break your trust

Or do you not trust them?…

…Instead of creating yourself…

(Get to) Know who you already are…

…Trust is broken by insincerity.

There is no better gauge of values than behavior…

…I don’t want to live less today

Because of the myth that is tomorrow.

…Just say it, so they know.

I love you. End of sentence…

…I crave stability and chaos

In place of the unknown.